I like silence. Actually, I crave it. Silence in the car, while working, while relaxing. There is something so incredibly peaceful about the stillness that silence brings. It gives me time to think before a million thoughts and to-do's flooded my brain. One instance where I can just breathe. Most people need to constantly be doing something -- listening to something -- almost fearing silence. But I embrace it. On the surface, I enjoy silence because I am an old-soul and get headaches way too easily. I just don't like loud things and don't need background noise. But recently, I have been doing a lot of reflecting in my life and this is where I have landed.
We live in such a culture of immediate gratification. Looking up answers to questions on our smart phones, asking Siri what the weather is like so we don't have to make an extra trip outside to feel it ourselves, or even paying for expedited shipping because we want that Amazon Prime purchase, like, yesterday. But what would our days look like if we sat out on our balcony for 5 minutes each morning and listened to the cars drive by? Or even sat at a restaurant with friends or spouses and genuinely engaged in intentional conversations instead of mindlessly scrolling? I think we get so caught up in what others are doing with their lives -- the cultural noise -- instead of appreciating the moments in our own lives that I fear we are missing.
In the silence, I clear my mind of the distractions of this world and find God.
As I sip (okay,chug) my morning coffee or battle rush hour traffic, God reminds me of how I am a falling prey to this sinful world, and how merciful and gracious He is despite it.
1 Timothy 1:15-16 says:
...Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners, of whom I am the foremost. But I received mercy for this reason, that in me, as the foremost, Jesus Christ might display his perfect patience as an example to those who were to believe in him for eternal life.
Tim Keller, pastor and author, explains it this way:
“We are more sinful and flawed in ourselves than we ever dared believe, yet at the very same time we are more loved and accepted in Jesus Christ than we ever dared hope.”
We are so distracted by what the world tells us to prioritize that we often mistake that for happiness and fulfillment. I fall prey to it every single day. But I am reminded through scripture that the same One who created me is the only One who can save me. This world can't save me. I am so tragically broken, yet The Lord can make me whole again. I so often mistake this for a simple, naive portion of my faith. When in reality, the abundance of grace and mercy I am shown on a daily basis is truly extravagant and unfathomable. How can I not thank God for rescuing me, redeeming me, and making me whole again? That is why I enjoy the silence -- the stillness -- to clear my head of all of the distractions going on around me and truly focus on what matters.
So, for me, that package can arrive late, my phone can stay in the car, and I don't have to be in on the latest trends because that won't get me Home. God is so good and I know he has a plan for my life. He will see that it comes to fruition, despite how I feel about it. I pray for patience and a calm spirit, that I might live out The Lord's will, not my own, letting go of the control that I have on my life and that the world has on me.
I will embrace the silence.